I think that sometimes, we get so lost in the world around us, and who we are told or taught to be that we forget who we are on a soul level. We get distracted by what we see, and what we hear and what is acceptable, and then build our identity around these factors. Sometimes, it takes certain people to exhibit some sort of behaviour, or sometimes things happen, that make us question who we really are or remind us of who we really are.
I saw something on SM today, and it bummed me out. I was annoyed, irritated and frustrated. So why did I feel this way and what could my reaction and emotions towards this teach me about myself?
I have been on this soul journey for a long time, read lots of books and articles, listened to lots of podcasts, watched tons of videos, listened to my inner guide through meditation and trusted my instincts and opened myself to the world of Spiritualism and Metaphysics. Iv shared this journey with people I came across, but I didnt really get started sharing what Iv learned until last year.
I felt like I finally got to a place where I could share my beliefs and passions and not care about what people thought because I knew who I was (Am) and what I am about. Occasionally though, I come across people who I feel are ‘stealing my identity’, or my ‘personal brand’ .. for lack of a better term, and of course, this is completely ridiculous! No-one can ‘steal’ who you are or what you are about. However, it still bums me the phurk out and I tend to get quite emotional about it.
They say that ‘Imitation Is The Sincerest Form Of Flattery… I say it fkn annoying. I have to then remind myself that I am allowing EGO to speak for me, and it starts a sequence of thoughts and questions:
‘What are these emotions trying to teach me?’
‘Why does this bother me so much?’
‘Am I feeling threatened, and if so, why?’
‘What is this reflecting about how I feel about myself?’
‘What would I have to believe is true to have this experience?’
Instead of responding to the person or event as the source of the frustration, take a deep dive inwards and ask yourself what this is bringing up for you. Is it questioning your integrity? Does it bring up self doubt, fear of failure, fear of not being good enough, a feeling of losing yourself or your identity? What are you really feeling?
How did this affect me?
For me, it was answering some feelings I have about where I am in terms of my current journey and how I want to proceed sharing this information I am learning and discovering every day. It makes me question my drive and ‘motivation’ and the big P … PURPOSE… A big ol pain in the ass in Candy Land. I ask myself why I start and stop, start and stop and why I am not sharing this information consistently. But sharing these emotions have lifted a weight off my shoulders. Im looking at how something that has occurred in my external environment is changing me intrinsically and thats progress baby!
5, 4, 3, 2, 1 …
So next time someone pisses you off, or next time something happens that makes go all She-Devil … Breathe, Count down from 5 (Thanks Mel Robbins!), and give yourself 5-10mins. Ask yourself
‘What are my emotions or physical reactions trying to teach me right now?’
You can either answer the question in your head, or journal (I find this really therapeutic – obviously) …
Now its your turn! What has your reaction to a situation or someones behaviour taught you about yourself?
Would LOVE to hear your story!
Peace, Love & Light